I had the strangest dream
I tend to have pretty vivid/horrendous/wild dreams, and thankfully I don’t remember them for too long. This one, however, has stuck out and I’ve been turning it over in my head quite a bit lately. It’s really made me do some heavy thinking, and changed my view of things at least slightly.
So in this dream my girlfriend is diagnosed with a brain tumor, and I have some form of rupture (like a stroke) from constantly keeping my anger in check. I don’t know what this by itself means, but I’m not a pansy so I’m going to say that these preliminary facts mean exactly nothing. The point is that we’re both given 6 months to live.
We spend the next 5 months in a montage, apparently, but we’re obviously trying to wring every drop out of the time we’ve got left that we can. It’s all very somber, but very peaceful in a way. We know what’s coming, we know what we have, and we’re just determined to enjoy the bit we’ve got left.
So after these 5 months are up, we do something that I’d have never imagined in a million years. We go skydiving. From a plane. Without parachutes.
Let me say that again. We jump from a plane tens of thousands of feet above the ground, and we don’t take parachutes. We hold each other the entire time down, surrounded by rushing wind and nothing else. This is amazingly sweet and sad at the same time, because there’s literally nothing else for us but each other, and we’re forced to bask fully in the presence of the other person. But we know it’s going to end.
But we know exactly how it’s going to end, when it’s going to end, no surprises. There are no weeks of torture. There is no lingering sadness. And most of all there is no loneliness. Neither of us has to live, even for a short time, without the other.
That was the dream.
Anyone who knows me will tell you that I’m not one for sappy crap. I’m not the type of person who generally thinks like I apparently did in the dream, and I’m even less inclined to talk about such thoughts/feelings. But something about this dream really got my brainmeats all fired up. Obviously I care a lot about my girlfriend, I don’t have any problem saying as much. But I can’t help thinking that there’s something else there, too. Fear of being alone now that I’ve found someone I love sharing my time with? Hell if I know.
But no matter how I slice it, it was a powerful dream. I really love that woman.
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It’s because you X about your mother. Isn’t that what every dream boils down to? :P
A lot of times people read more into dreams and try to assign meaning. Me, if I had that dream, I’d think we were both just suicidal and stupid for jumping out of a plane together. hehe
REPLY FROM HIS MOTHER;
Ablissful dissent from this world into something else…better…mysterious…would that we all be so lucky.
Hmm, maybe it’s metaphorical. You are happy as can be with the person you are with but maybe deep down you know that staying with her will be the death of you? Just a guess. Peace
*sniffles* That’s one of the sweetest things I’ve ever heard.
I told you, there’s a heart in there.